Take a Bow

Take a bow, the night is over
This masquerade is getting older
Lights are low, the curtains down
There's no one here
[There's no one here, there's no one in the crowd]
Say your lines but do you feel them
Do you mean what you say when there's no one around [no one around]
Watching you, watching me, one lonely star
[One lonely star you don't know who you are]

Chorus:

I've always been in love with you [always with you]
I guess you've always known it's true [you know it's true]
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

Make them laugh, it comes so easy
When you get to the part
Where you're breaking my heart [breaking my heart]
Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown
[Just make 'em smile the whole world loves a clown]
Wish you well, I cannot stay
You deserve an award for the role that you played [role that you played]
No more masquerade, you're one lonely star
[One lonely star and you don't know who you are]

(chorus, repeat)

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

All the world is a stage [world is a stage]
And everyone has their part [has their part]
But how was I to know which way the story'd go
How was I to know you'd break
[You'd break, you'd break, you'd break]
You'd break my heart

I've always been in love with you
[I've always been in love with you]
Guess you've always known
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

mindless ramblings

it's funny how your mind is able to come up with such elaborate schemes of what other people might be thinking of you or of a certain incident that took place between the both of you that it can sometimes become something that is probably so far fetched to that other person but not neccesarily with you?

Ok i'm raging on incessently...the thing is i had this big argument with a person rather dear to me and we havent talked to each other since...it's been a little more then a week now and I cant seem to get my mind of the fact that i did play my little role to egg on the situation and hurt this person too (or so i think)...thing is....do i say sorry just so that i'd make myself feel better or do i just let it be? simmer itself down and let things take their own course? i swear the banes of being an emotional person...we think too much of others...and their feelings and that effects us...how we feel for the rest of the day...which is so stupid...why can't we just not give 2 f**cks?

Therefore in this wheel that is called life, what do i do? Maybe i'm just too emotional and i should just wait it out till i'm not feeling so emotional and can think like the cool no emotions person that i appear to be and then see what my head instead of my heart says eh?

Oh by the way, to all who care, i got through my refferals...i can officially take the next step in my life and proceed ahead =)

Clauses and Terms

i don't actually have anything in particular to write because my head is a wee bit fuzzy from all the scrubbing done on my scalp in the evening via a wonderful new machine that Ben just got for his spa...it removed the follicles that blocked my hair from growing to its full lustre and therefore causing the hair on my head to be frizzy and drop off but anyways I am printing the visa application forms for india and i came across something that i find rather amusing..

"I hereby undertake that I shall subject myself to medical tests including for AIDS within one month of arrival in India.
In case I am found HIV positive. I will leave India."

Clearly the Indians aren't your best friends if you're carriying such a disease...personally i dont think they should be saying that seeing as they have such a big population, a HIV patient or 2 might help with there being more protected sex and therefore helping out with their population problem so to speak...

Another thing..what if i'm like this really really rich investor coming in to survey a place to start out a good lucrative industry and will give many people jobs and boost the economy in a way that would make the country's ambitions being realised???

little girls should be seen and not heard

They say that girls should be seen and not heard...well in this country i think that little girls of a particular background should not ever be seen what more heard...why cover yourself so you will never ever be seen by the public especially the opposite sex for why harm will come to you when you so much as show a little skin on your fingers...women are kept away from exposure from the world and even from being exposed to the opposite sex until they reach a particular age where it is not proper for them to be alone and they are now pressured to find themselves a man and get married before the clock strikes on their 30th birthday.
I cannot believe that in this day and age, being single at a particular age is considered the greatest failure in one's life. Never mind if you are a successful lawyer who churns a heck load of money and is able to achieve all that to you makes yourself a success story, if your not married, well meaning relatives and your parents cry endlessly that you are still 'so alone'. If that is the do all and end all of life, why bother with everything else? why study? just focus on being extremely beautiful...or on the intricacies of home making...i mean who needs a smart and witty wife rite?
Ok I'm ranting unnecessarily. Sadly i have to admit that I do sometimes fall into this very narrow school of thought, but only when it comes to myself...there are days when i think "what the hell is wrong with me to be still single?" i mean we all have that days (and it comes every month on a precise date if you know what i mean) but the thing is there is so much more to life then that and i think that sometimes so many of us are so caught up in that train of thought that we forget to just enjoy the day for what it is worse still, we forget to thank god for all the beautiful gifts that he has given to us like our friends, family, our wit, the fact that we are smart beautiful independent women who have that good safety net to fall on at our weakest moments.
I'm not going to be a hypocrite here and say that I'm so happy being single that I never want to be with someone. In fact, it is my dream to someday be one of those women who have it all...the career, the family, the great wonderful guy who I'll always be crazy about till the day i die (note the word dream here)...but for now, all I'm saying is let it just be...be happy the way you are...and if there is someone who is still single and is 'old' well, maybe that is the way she wants to be...who are you to judge and pity her...because thing is...no one likes to be pitied...unless you're like one of my dogs of course =)

racism

Show me a person who claims that he/she is not a racist in this country and I will in turn show you a liar. I would think that everyone from the richest person in the country right down to the person sleeping on the floors of the Pasar Seni LRT station blames the workings of their life or the unfairness of their life in a certain race...the Chinese are greedy and the only thing they will be ever good at in being kniving and greedy, the Indians are just liars period and the Malays, well the Malays are by far the laziest race and just wait around for aids from the government.
I'm no angel, in fact i definitely fall into one of that categories where i do stereotype people according tot heir race and make assumptions once i hear if they are from a particular race...and there is no acception if it is Indian, in fact, I am somehow harder on my own people. The thing is, we're brought up that way, in our semangat BERTOLERANSI...we are taught to be tolerant of others and in tolerance, the resentment grew and the unfair NEP caused more harm in the distribution of the wealth of our country's vast resources that many considered to be unfair and is at its current peak i would think with the Government's decision on certain matters that have prodded the sensitivity of the country.
Thing is whilst we might have had our prejudices all the time, i feel that these prejudice feelings are slowly creating a path that is fast leading to hate and resentment which once peaked could lead to so much more...
And how did all these thoughts emerge in my head? the Malay car wash people in front of my house who i know for a fact have to work so hard everyday to make a living without any help whatsoever from the government and from the comment my mother made awhile ago while we were watching the credits of a Tamil picture we presumed to be locally made...

life documentation

There was this article in the latest Cleo magazine about how people these days are so in need of their gadgets and gizmos and the fact that they have the need to document every aspect of their life that they forget to live it.

It's very true isn't it? these days we see trillions of picture's being put up on facebook...pictures of a simple time spent having coffee with friends, or just a night out at a club...are people so busy documenting their lives that they are forgetting to live it and well, enjoy the moment as it is supposed to be?

It's probably reached the extent that technology is not improving the value of our lives it is in fact making us loose it inch by inch...pretty sad dont you think?

P.S: Diana Frances Chai, got your message on facebook...i'm crossing my fingers hoping you get what you want to...i personally think you will rock at it =) love u babe

History Lessons

It’s 5.58 a.m…figured out that just before i call it a day (in my terms as my day officially begins at 12 p.m) i thought i’d just go throught the headlines of the past few days on the Star website and amidsts the Malay Rulers threatening the rakyat to ‘honour’ the social contract and finding out that HIndraf is now illegal (you must forgive me for my lateness, i have a stupid exam on monday see) i find that the Education Ministry is in the works of bringing the History subject to primary schools.

Don’t get me wrong. I loved history in school, in fact i still like history a lot. i read historical mismash and nonsense just for the heck of it and thanks to Diana I now also have the keen interest in British history although nowhere as near as her fascination for it.

Learning History in Malacca was in a way even more fun, especially if your school sat on what used to be the great a famosa fort and faced the Sultanate Palace wherein your teacher could just ask you to lookout of the window to see the historical sights where these great events took place.

Malaysia, being a very young civilisation does have a lot to be proud of, especially becoming the nation we are today, which we could not have become due to the forsight of our forefathers who knew what was needed to be done when it was done. Learning about things like this had made me a person who was happy to be a Malaysian and to be born on the Malaysian soil as apposed to being born into the wartorn land of Jafna or even some remote part of South India( depending to whom i am born to seeing as my parents would have never had met in the first place).

That was all when we were young and was made to belive that everything that was in our books were the gospel truth and cannot be challanged. It was in the Buku Teks…so it must be true.

Then as we got older and started learning about things like Malayan Union, where people who were non indegeneous were called ‘pendatang’ and was asked to return to the countries from which they came from, people who were born and bred on this soil was still branded a ‘pendatang’ when he belonged to the country as much as the next indegeneous person…that made me sad…i questioned the validity of this…and was told to accept it as a mechanism in which was needed in order to achive the independence we have today…the freedom we all should be glad to have…a freedom that could have only have been achieved through this great sacrifice.

i dleved further into history, the people that were regarded as hero, from dato Maharajalela to Rentap, our country’s celebrated hero’s were celebrated not because they fought some worthy cause against the colonialists…but rather they were DEFENDING THEIR RIGHTS TO GO AROUND CHOPPING OFF PEOPLE’S HEADS AND THEIR ‘GOD GIVEN’ RIGHT TO HAVE SLAVES!!!

Honestly, is this something to be proud of? They say that it is the begginings of rebbelion should be seen as the ‘pemangkin’ for the other nationallists to stand up to the colonialist…really? I somehow beg to disagree.

I suppose I am backtrackking here and running away from the point at hand, which is teaching history to primary school students…the reason for it according to the Education Minister;

“Through History, the pupils will be exposed to the hardships faced in the past and be thankful with what they have now,”

So I wonder, whose story are these children going to be taught?The current history that we have been taught? why is the current generation of adults in their 20s and 30s not thankful enough for what they have? Apparently not…the education of the country has made a fundamental mistake, they failed to wash our brains before we were old enough to think for ourselves and realise that everything we have been taught about concerning the ‘Sejarah Malaysia’ was just one big government propaganda wherein we will be fearful of incidents like May 13th and ‘behave’…further their failure to include what should be landmarks in our history as the judicial crisis in 1988 is further proof of the Government’s plan to show to us that “hey look everything is bright and sunny in Malaysia…” no news of the formation of UMNO Baru, Tungku and Dato Jaafar Onn, the founding father of UMNO was ridiculed when he made mention of making UMNO a party for malaysians and not malays…mistakes made to look as though they were decisions that had to be made in order to maintain the country’s peace and prosperity…

I wonder, is this done for our good, or in favour of the rulling coalition…I can only hope that with the inclusion of historyfor kids in primary school, they have at least more world history instead of the boring crap they make us learn year in and out from the time we touch that F1 text book to the day of our SPM examination…because honestly, most of us could stand to learn about things outside this little ‘tempurung’ we call Malaysia.

A New Phase

to those who are actually into reading blogs which are pretty much the same as many other blogs, this is for you...to those of you who are friends, the ones who used to read my rantings on friendster, i have now moved here...so don't expect a lot more, but do expect more then that was there most part of this year...I've definitely got back that blog bug =)...
i'll put up some stuff from the Friendster blog but other then that...this is my new baby =)